Drowning

It’s a dark and stormy night at sea.  I’m on a sailboat not meant to be in rough waters like this.  One high wave too many hits the boat and I’m knocked overboard.  The rain is pouring down around me as I struggle to stay above the surface of the water.  It’s icy cold and

Surgeries, Anxiety Insecurity and Stars

Celeb Plastic Surgery - An Interesting Manifestation of Anxiety: Body Dysmorphic Disorder  Recentry my grilfriend pointed me to this celebrity surgery website. I had to admit I spend some time checking out who did what type of surgery. After thinking about this for a while I decided to wr

Coming home from hospital

Well, here goes - my first diary post. I have always been a quiet person. Very private and very shy toward other people. When I was growing up, I had issues with my friends all because as my father so befittingly pointed out - I was acting the way I thought they wanted me to act. How observant he w

The Quest to Overcome

  Here I am almost 40yrs old and still dealing with Social Anxiety Disorder. I realize that finding the root cause of my anxiety is the first major step in overcoming it. My anxiety started when I was about 12 and started viewing myself differently. I didn’t like my smile or my voi

Living in fear

My name is Rob and I feel like I am losing the battle with my anxiety and panic attacks. I have had social anxiety disorder and panic attacks for the last 30 years and have been able to maintain a close to normal life style. Over the last five years though it has been an exhasting battle that has ta

New to anxiety

It was December 5th, 2012 and my fiance and I were headed out of town.  Not 15 minutes into it, I felt like I was going to be sick and had to pull over so he could drive.  It was an instant feeling that I assumed was just a bug or something that was going around.  For a few weeks I fe

Iron Man Has Anxiety

Mental Health Awareness, and the Latest Movies By Salomon Ptasevich Last week I had a chance to see the latest Iron Man movie, and to my surprise the new Tony Stark seems to be suffering from what appears to be panic attacks, night terrors and PTSD. In multiple scenes we can see him struggling wit

I wasnt born this way so I refuse to stay this way!!!

So I have always been told to document my feelings, keep a journal, write it down. Well, here we go. Figure why not do it on here if it can help someone else. I am 43 soon to be 44, ick, and I have suffered from anxiety for over 20 years. It started when my youngest was born on 11/22/92. He was a mo