So back in October I had a really, really bad panic attack.
I had ended up overdosing on ibuprofen. Honestly, I don't know if it was a suicide attempt or not. I wasn't in control, I know that much, because my panic took over my entire body and thought process. It was terrifying. I ended up calling 911 myself, because I didn't really know if I was dying (I was).
Anyway, I had to stay in a psychiatric hospital after I left the regular medical hospital, and it was the worst experience ever. Not only did I feel so out of place due to the fact there was a lot of people in there who had it worse than me, but no matter how you ended up there, people looked at you like you were crazy. And that's actually a PTSD trigger for me.
okay so blah blah blah.. I ended up leaving the inpatient after a week or so and had reached the state of nirvana once I was in outpatient. That lasted a week.
Now, only a few months later, I am back in the same exact place. My PTSD symptoms have subsided, but it's still something I struggle with.
Plus, maybe this is my unpopular opinion, but I hate physiologist's. All they want to do is pump my blood stream with drugs and it's such a god damn pain in the ass.
Sorry for this rant.