Im really scared about going back to school after the term break. Im feeling really bad and i want to die. Its getting worse everything is. My mum is spending more time with her boyfriend, my dad is getting more depressed and my brother anger is bad again. On monday (the first day back) mum is going to see the year coordinator whick my normal one has left becasue she is pregnet and isnt coming back next year. Shes going to see if i can get taken out of this class where this teacger was reallyh rude to me and yelled at me in front of everyone and made me have a panic attack/ cry. Im really scared my fear is coming back (my fear of vomiting) and i need help im going to my therapist again next week but honestly she isnt helping me. Thye all say the say thing which is just breathe and think positive. I try my hardest and it doesn help. I'm running out of ideas. Also we have an assembly for anzac day and im freaking out my care giver is getting annoyed because she thinks im just "scared" to go sop i can sit out of it but im not i hate sitting with people all around me. I start to panic and cant breathe people just point and laugh and i hate it. My mum is still angry because i want to be homeschool well its not homeschooled its called distance education but i might be eligable for it because of my anxiety she just says no and gets really angry she doesnt understand how i can do it on the internet i dont think she trusts me. Also i have tests and im only in year 8 so i dont do them in the hall but i do them in class and i have panic attacks than so i dont know what im going to do when i go into year 9 and do big hall tests... I need some help or somethig i just want to dissapear :/ :((( (sorry bout bad spelling and punctuation thats not really what im worried about now)..