I've tried keeping a journal/diary in the past and I've never really kept up with it. Even now I have one that I draw or color in occasionally. When I was an inpatient, I loved the art therapy and was really good about keeping my sketch journal as a tool to keep myself calm. Coloring helps me a lot but I haven't been doing it at all lately. I've been very focused on school since it's my last semester, and I watching all of Criminal Minds which helped to calm me down most nights. I've been able to feel myself building up again, and I started crashing this past week. I've been having trouble sleeping again, more trouble than usual focusing; I feel like I've been craling back into myself again, which I know isn't good. I stayed hidden for a long time because I didn't want anyone to know how I was feeling on the inside.