**WARNING: 18+ material discussed**
Today I went into the sex shop I seem to be frequenting lately and decided to start on account on porn rentals. This is both good and bad. Now I feel as though I have unlimited access to porn, but I am saving money on a positive note by just renting, rather than buying porn.
I seem to be masturbaring more and more often as well. I'm estimating about 6 - 8 times a day, now. When I'm at work it's less at least, but even then sometimes I'll run off to the bathrooms and do it.
I notice that the more I delve back into my addiction the less I pay attention to my hobbies. I haven't thought about or attempted in working on my web site in weeks. I'm trying to stay active in my photography, but lately the type of photography I *want* to do is more adult themed. Haven't hit that quite yet, but I fear I'm going in that direction.
I haven't heard anything from the Sex Addicts Anonymous group. :( I may call again and leave another message, but I'm feeling pretty hopeless. I think I might join an online support group. I'm sure my boyfriend will hate it, but I'm feeling so desperate for help at this point.