Today I'm recovering from yesterdays Anxiety attack. Yesterday I had a fight/argument with my hubby, he made me feel real bad about myself and and cried. I was really tiered after and I felt twitchy (in my face around my eyes). I went for a walk later in the day with my baby to the store (7-11) which is the closest thing to me so it's just why I go but it's all junk food there so I don't know why I go just to get out I guess. The walk didn't help my exhuation level. I kinda felt agitated and found it hard to focus even speaking was somewhat diffacult. My Hubby has been really stressed and has his issues as well, everyonce in a while he dumps his shit on me (maybe 2-3 times a year), but the last time and this time I told him what he is doing is dumping his baggage on me he starting to realize what he's doing and feels bad. He actually said sorry to me which felt nice, after I told him that I love him and think about him and take care of the kids I try my best and you just shit all over me and that hurts my feelings, he gave me a heart felt somber "I'm sorry".
I feel like days like that suck but I think it helps to figure out who you are, and what you want.
Later that night I knew I was tired I could feel it all day so I went to bed earlier then usuall, but I ended up just laying there mind racing with thoughts and worries and wonders, with my heart rate climbing up and down. I didn't get to sleep till much later then I would have liked (in bed for 4 hours before falling asleep). atleast my Hubby let me sleep in. He took care of the baby :)
So today has been a recovery day wondering if my Anxiety is coming back, if my meds are wearing off, will I need to up my dose in under 2 months? not a good sign. I'm Scared to Face my Anxiety again the last time I gave in and started taking meds, but if I can't take them any more will I be able to conquor this beast, or will it take me down. If I can Conquor it I Will Be Stronger!