I refuse to smoke, I dont like to drink and it feels as though there is no one here to help me. I live in a world that feels sheltered beyond belief, consisting of being stresed and having anxiety. My family doesn't have the slightlest clue as to what im dealing with and its so hard doing this alone. I have ADHD, anxiety, and an eating disorder. Also as a child I was diagnosed with learned disabilities in math and reading and could only get past the reading. Now im 17 years old and I still deal with all of this on my plate on a daily baises. I quit my job at a high end resteraunt to work at mcdonalds because I thought id like it more but now i have no desire to work there anymore because i hate it and ive gained 15 pounds since working there because we are given 30 min breaks and because of the hrs i work i cant bring my own food. Im done with it though.. Im really considering starving myself again because i dont want to be fat. I cant be fat. Im already fat and now getting fatter is killling me. I dont even want to look in a mirror anymore. Im failing my math class which isn't helping anything because i cant graduate early if that happens and i just dont know what to do with myself. this blog isnt' over but i have to go to work now.
-sincerly ready to give up