I am not a stupid person, in fact I consider myself a smart girl that sometimes or usually does stupid stuff (depending on circumstance). My history of academic performance varies from high average to low, although I always score high on intelligence test or aptitude tests. Recently I just passed my first Licensure Exam, the one for Registered Psychometricians and I am very happy about it.
So I am going into the heart of my problem before this would sound like a shameless self-aggrandizing entry.
Ever since I have been experiencing panic anxiety, I have been in a state of constant worry, primarily for my sanity. I have heard of those stories from my family and friends
about this person they knew or that one family member, that went a little astray with their mental health. Usually, I would hear, what a shame, she was smart that one, maybe became too smart.
And that always puts a chill in my heart, especially now that I am diagnosed with an actual mental disorder.
Am I going to be one of those people? That went crazy because of being too smart? Should I stop reading, and stifle my curiosity about random things?
These thoughts make me depressed, and worried.
So I am just gonna break down here the reasons why I should not be worried, this serves to soothe me and anyone else who may be thinking the same thing.
1. I am not that smart, sure I have a nice fat vocabulary in Engilsh even though it is my second language, and know some stuff, but I am especially terrible at math.
2. Intelligence itself is not the cause of mental disorders, they are just correlated (and I am guessing here) because intelligent people think and people with mental disorders think way too much.
3. There are geniuses who have IQs that are out of this world, and they are fine, perhaps some quirks here or there but otherwise fine.
4. There are a lot of stupid people that do stupid stuff and you just KNOW they have a mental disorder.
5. I am not that smart.