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Thursday, 31 March 2016 09:27

My personal battle with anxiety

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My name is Charlotte, I am 28 years old and was diagnosed with anxiety at the age of 13. I can remember having panic attacks long before I was “diagnosed”. I believe it started at a very young age. Every family has their issues, being the youngest, I always thought it was my job to “keep the peace” in my house. This puts a lot of stress on a child. When my parents got divorced at the age of 12, and my older sister had moved out of state things got a lot worse. I was lashing out in school and having more and more anxiety issues.


I started smoking marijuana very very young, by 14 it became a daily routine. I recall days where I had worse panic attacks because the THC was too much for my body. Not knowing that then, I just smoked more hoping the panic attacks would go away. At 15, I started seeing therapists and getting put on mood stabilizer medications. For 12 years I battled myself and the drugs, going on and off drugs against doctor recommendations. Switching doctors, switching meds and stopping medications more times than I can count. As I got into my early twenties, I experimented with drugs and began drinking alcohol with friends. What I didn't realize was the amount of “self medicating” that was really going on. Things got worse, I would have panic attacks in normal day to day situations, driving to work, paying bills, standing in line at the grocery store. You name it, it caused me to panic.


At 26 my life changed. I happened to land a job working as a budtender at a recreational dispensary in Colorado. This job literally changed and saved my life. For the first time I learned about CBD, which is the non psychoactive chemical found in Marijuana. I started taking CBD products; chocolate bars, candy, gummies, drinks, and found Marijuana that was high in CBD. All of a sudden my panic attacks were manageable. 6 months after working at the dispensary, I packed up and moved to Florida which had always been a dream of mine. I started working in a Smoke shop that happened to sell CBD oil to be vaped in an E Cigarette. This was my saving grace. I was able to get LEGAL CBD in a state that wasn't a Medical Marijuana state. Because the CBD came from Hemp that was grown outside the country making the product legal in all 50 states. Using a combination of CBD Vape Liquid and Nicotine Vape Liquid I was able to quit smoking cigarettes, which I had been addicted to since I was about 12 years old. I know very young to start smoking, but this is me and my story, please don't judge.


A few months after quitting smoking and using CBD I decided it was time for the true test. I decided to stop my mood stabilizer meds (without consulting a doctor, something I have done for years) and see how I felt. During the first few weeks everything was fine, no panic attacks and feeling great. This was a common thing for me, every time I felt better I would stop my meds and test the waters, it never went well, I always ended up back in a doctor's office. This time was different. I am happy to say it has been over a year since I stopped my “mood stabilizers” and have had less than a handful of panic attacks. This is HUGE for me!


When I have panic attacks (which are far and few between) I grab CBD. I have become partial to one brand in particular because it seems to be the best quality I have found. I have done so much research and found out that CBD can help so many things, not just seizures (which is what you hear about on the news) but things like anxiety, cramps, muscle pain, PTSD and even Alzheimer's.


I am extremely happy to say CBD helped me and is helping people I know and love. No one should be in pain, everyone deserves to be happy. Anxiety causes so many problems in life. I hope more people learn about CBD and how it helps you. It's not weed, it's a natural alternative to pharmaceuticals. It offers a lot of help without the zombie like side effects I would experience from drugs given to me by a doctor.  

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