Today is a very off day.
It has been a very long time since I have felt this anxious, sad and emotional since my ex left me. I have a wonderful new partner, who does nothing but spoil me (especially emotionally), but for whatever reason today is filled with doubt.
Doubt, self-loathing, heavy.
Not good enough
Not good enough for my partner, not good enough for my job, for my friends. I am a terrible person who emotionally manipulates people, or so I feel.
I want it to be over. I hate that the wait list for a psychologist is 6-8 months. The only reason is my benefits covers that.
I've had tears in my eyes since I left for work this morning, and I don't know when or why but, they'll come soon.
I HATE the control that my emotions have over me, and it seems nothing works.