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Thursday, 27 December 2012 03:14

Social Anxiety Blogger

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"Too many of us are not living our dreams, because we are too busy living our fears." Les Brown


Recently, I started blogging about my social anxiety disorder. I also started posting some original songs online. 

My original thought - YIKES!

As someone who has suffered from severe social anxiety disorder since the age of 10, the idea of blogging about it seemed like an interesting dillemma. Yes - I would love to get my story out there, if only because I myself would have gained a lot from reading it when I was younger. But No - I can't put myself out there, everyone will judge me, and who am I to think that anyone will care, people will just think I'm full of it and be annoyed.

At the end of the day, probably very few people will even know that it's out there. Yes, a lot of my friends have been suddenly enlightened to the fact that this disorder even exists, but on the upside, they now understand why I usually have an excuse not to go to their parties, and maybe, just maybe one or two of them have recognised the same traits in themselves and may look at others in a new light.

I am a singer, and I love to sing and write music, but until this past month, I have NEVER let anyone hear what I write, let alone put it online for all to access. I guess though, that I've come to a point where I've managed to conquer the worst of the social part of my anxiety (through years of intensive CBT sessions), and am now using blogging as a tool to keep myself moving forward, to chase my dreams and to actually do things that make me happy, and (try) not to care what anyone else thinks. After all, we all have hobbies and weird things that make us happy, so why should I have to keep mine hidden when everyone else is out there doing what they do?

I'm certainly not saying that I intend to be famous - I actually dread that - I think I dread success from my music (and now the little voice in my head is saying - "you narcissistic arrogant girl to even be contemplating such an outcome).

So my blogs on this fabulous site, will be about how I'm coping on my journey to finally achieve my dreams in spite of anxiety and panic.

Would love to have feedback on wether anyone else out there is getting anything postive from what I write, but at the same time, that's not the reason I'm doing this. 

xx

www.jessicaclaire.webs.com 

Last modified on Wednesday, 09 January 2013 01:51

4 comments

  • Comment Link TrivediEffect Monday, 02 February 2015 06:18 posted by TrivediEffect

    With social anxiety disorder or social phobia, there are thousands of people around the world are suffering. Trivedi Effect, a natural process can overcome it effectively.

  • Comment Link Spiralea Thursday, 24 July 2014 12:59 posted by Spiralea

    How can I hear your songs? I think it is really important to recognise and highlight that people with anxiety withdraw even from their dreams and aspirations. Its a big one and your making progress. Your stronger than you think. I admire you.

  • Comment Link valorieb Wednesday, 06 March 2013 03:47 posted by valorieb

    Hey, this is awesome that you started a blog. I felt a lot of the same fears when I started my own blog. I was scared of telling people I had therapy. I was scared of telling them there was something "defective" about me. But after I posted it, I realized nothing really changed. All my friends were still my friends. Some of them even admired what I was doing. I admire you for your post. I will be interested to follow you and see how you cope. Those of us with social anxiety gotta stick together! :) You can check out my blog too if you want. I just started it. I'm trying to challenge myself to do adventures with my social anxiety. I know I have a loving, social person in me, you know? http://shygirladventurer.blogspot.com/

  • Comment Link mti Tuesday, 01 January 2013 19:14 posted by mti

    Hello Jessica,

    Just wanted to say that your songs are really good.

    And this blog and your own personal one will become a source of courage and awareness for many people.

    Take care,

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