Trapped.. my walls are crumbling around me and I can't deal anymore.. I left my job 2 months ago due to stress and health issues, but that only started myself into a downward spiral. I am now jobless on EI and I can't pay all my bills, my relasonships have fallen apart, there are a friend friends who have been calling to check up on me, but I spend all day now at home hardly leaving even for food. I have no joy left in my life and all I have is pain and fear, fear of failure, fear of dieing and fear of having nothing left. My world that I have been living in is but and ilusion and it is crumbling around me, I can't make choices for myself and I am tired every day, I did not sleep much last night, even after taking some sleeping pills. Everything sets me off, even the simplest things. I can't walk down the street and look people in the face, if I see someone my own age…