I am not a stupid person, in fact I consider myself a smart girl that sometimes or usually does stupid stuff (depending on circumstance). My history of academic performance varies from high average to low, although I always score high on intelligence test or aptitude tests. Recently I just passed my first Licensure Exam, the one for Registered Psychometricians and I am very happy about it.
So I am going into the heart of my problem before this would sound like a shameless self-aggrandizing entry.
Ever since I have been experiencing panic anxiety, I have been in a state of constant worry, primarily for my sanity. I have heard of those stories from my family and friends
about this person they knew or that one family member, that went a little astray with their mental health. Usually, I would hear, what a shame, she was smart that one, maybe became too smart.
And that always puts a chill in my heart, especially now that I am diagnosed with an actual mental disorder.
Am I going to be one of those people? That went crazy because of being too smart? Should I stop reading, and stifle my curiosity about random things?
These thoughts make me depressed, and worried.
So I am just gonna break down here the reasons why I should not be worried, this serves to soothe me and anyone else who may be thinking the same thing.
1. I am not that smart, sure I have a nice fat vocabulary in Engilsh even though it is my second language, and know some stuff, but I am especially terrible at math.
2. Intelligence itself is not the cause of mental disorders, they are just correlated (and I am guessing here) because intelligent people think and people with mental disorders think way too much.
3. There are geniuses who have IQs that are out of this world, and they are fine, perhaps some quirks here or there but otherwise fine.
4. There are a lot of stupid people that do stupid stuff and you just KNOW they have a mental disorder.
5. I am not that smart.
Hi! My name is Michelle Hughes, otherwise known as "Bipolar Bandit". I run a Facebook page, a Pinterest board that is a great resource for most mental illnesses, a Twitter page, and I blog. I have been advocating for people with mental illnesses for about 20 years. I recently started an Advocacy Group on Facebook.
I am looking forward to sharing my diary here on Anxiety Social Net. Since I already have been blogging, I suggest that you check my blog to find out more about what I stand for and how I have been advocating, and more about who I am.
My newest project is to spread the news about a petition that I think makes a lot of sense. We, as advocates, have so many ideas of what needs to change and even have solutions of how they can change. The first obstacle is to get people with influence (media, politicians, actors, musicians, athletes, etc) to hear us. I think this petition will get that started.
I am asking that each state come up with a plan for Mental Illness Awareness Week(MIAW). This will not cost too much money, if any and I believe it is something that both Democrats and Republicans can agree on. I hope you take a few moments to read the petition, sign it, and share it with others. We need to get our voice heard! If the NFL can dedicate a whole month to Breast Cancer Awareness, then I think that an organization like that and others can use one week to raise awareness, educate, and help to erase the stigma of mental illness. The petition is called Mental Illness Awareness Week Being Observed in 2013 and everything is explained in the petition. Although, this is just for Americans, I am also currently planning a petition for other countries including the US to acknowledge World Mental Health Day too.
I hope to be using this diary on a regular basis. If you want to know more about me, please read my story.
Thanks Anxiety Social Net for allowing me to share this information!