Monday, 07 October 2013 20:19

I'm really afraid of losing her :c

Hey guys uhmm....i've been told to check out this website and i finally did which is good i guess...well i've been depressed most of my life, and i never really had anyone to talk to about it and that's not a good thing...but anyways... most people ignore me and judge me by the way i dress and so but to be honest, i really don't mind it..i like being alone..or i don't like it.. i just don't want friends and so one 'cause one day they'll forget me and when they do i will get really bad again :l so now i'm kind of a loner..some weeks ago a teacher on my school took me out of the class to talk for a moment and he talked about how he have noticed me being sad and so on. So i kinda told him about and now he pull me out of class at least once a week..i really don't like it 'cause i just want people to leave me alone and just go on with their day but of course he won't let me be sad anymore so he says he has to talk to me...a girl started to talk to me some time ago and i kinda like her..she's really cool and such but deep down i wish i had never said hi to her in the first place...we're best buds now and i'm so afraid of losing her... she's moving to another school here next year and i just can't bare the feeling of losing her...i knew it was a bad idea to become friends with her and now i don't know what to do :c every time i talk about it, i always as you can guess i'm crying right now...well i guess that's it :l thank you for listening to my problem(s)

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