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  • Does anyone else have nightmares? how do you deal with them?

    how do you deal with having a nightmare. Mine are really vivid! as if it was really happening. So usually when i wake up im in this horrible anxiety attack before i open my eyes!
  • Fear of public transportation and long journeys?

    I suffer from fear of public transportation, i.e busses, coaches, taxi's, trains, aeroplanes, and long journeys, and I was wondering if anyone else here suffers similar experiences from what I am about to write from bellow: I don't know how or why it started but I sure remember when. One of my ex girlfriends and i had a long distance relationship. We lived about four hours away from each other and we would both take it in turns to take the train to one another's houses and stay for a while. I was I think 14/15 years of age and had been suffering from severe depression and severe anxiety since I will say the age of 11 as that was when I was first officially diagnosed although I have always been an anxious person. Anyway, this one day it was my turn to take the train up to hers and for a while now the anxiety had been building on these journeys every time, and on this particular day something felt different, shall I say. I had boarded on to the train and I could see my Dad standing on the platform outside of my window and I suddenly just went berserk. I shouted through the window to my Dad, "I can't do this", and suddenly desperately needed the toilet and was hyperventilating, pouring with sweat, shaking uncontrolably, and I couldn't even talk! After i had been to the toilet about 10 times, I had been throwing up blood and blood was coming out from my behind also and suddenly everything went dark. I later woke up on the floor of the carriage of the train by the ticket guy and he called for help and I was taken off at the next station. I was so embarrassed and ashamed, I had to call my dad who luckily had not left the station after i had shouted to him "I can't do this" and came to get me straight away. I had to be taken to the hospital and get checked over etc, all to discover that I had IBS..? When I was a kid and would go on school trips, I never wanted to, i was too afraid but I was still made to go, and i would always throw up - embarrassing and shameful yet again for me and I would experience levels of anxiety but not to the level of the story up above. After that experience on the train, I tried going on to a bus. I had paid for my seat and the bus was about to set off, and I suddenly ran off the bus shouting to the driver to open the doors and let me off. And once again I was very embarrassed and ashamed. I had also tried to go on long journeys in the car back to my hometown, London, UK, Bournemouth where my auntie and cousin live, and other long journeys but that also got too much for me to bear. Every time I got anxious I would suddenly need the toilet without warning and would have to get my Dad or whoever was driving to pull over immediately in fear that I would soil myself. And now, at the age of 22, I still suffer from this. Even when I'm not going on a journey, as soon as I become anxious, I need the toilet immediately. My friends don't know about this at all, only my current girlfriend and my parents do. So when my friends ask me to go on a journey with them somewhere, I have to make up an excuse and lie to them. I hate having to do that. It has happened a lot when being in the car with my girlfriend going on a journey somewhere. Twice I have been in tears in the car because I thought I was about to soil myself. In my personal opinion of myself, and no one else, i feel that as a 22 year old man, I should not be suffering with this. I constantly tell myself "you know, you're not a kid, you're a grown man so start acting like one", and all other kinds of things. I am my own worst enemy at times, I do self sabotage a lot. I actually can't believe i'm writing this for all to see, but I need to know that I'm not alone and need any advice anyone can give me.
  • I feel like I'm going crazy. Help!

    The past few days I have been feeling terrible. I don't know how much longer I can take it. This is going to sound weird but I keep having scary, uncontrollable thoughts that I am going insane or I'm possessed. I can't sleep at night because I keep getting sensations of being startled awake. My anxiety is making me feel physically ill. My heart has been palpitating constantly, I just took my pulse and it's 96 bpm sitting down. My chest feels heavy. This is not the first time I have experienced this. I am afraid I might end up in the emergency room or mental hospital. I don't know if it's a panic attack or side effect from my meds ( I take sertraline Zoloft and Abilify). Has anyone else here experienced this? How do I make it go away? Please help.
  • I need a job, but can't leave my house

    I need help. Like serious help. This may sound stupid, and like some whiney teenage brat who isn't ready to grow up, I know because I see myself that way, but I can't make it stop no matter what I do. I have always been scared to leave my house. even to places I knew well, or with people I knew well, so often I would confine myself to my room. (which I was also afraid of leaving while in my house) Going to school was hell and just being in close proximity with others, not being able to get away from them, and confined with them all day drove me to think about constantly, and even try killing myself on multiple occasions. I couldn't sleep. I would lie awake until my alarm clock went off, and numbly get dressed before I trudged off to school. I wouldn't eat while at school either, and would wait the whole day till I got home, oftentimes not even eating breakfast. I would feel scared and alone even when my friends were next to me. Sitting down next to people was hell. I often stood while my friends sat down to eat or talk, and I still don't know why I do that. But that is in the past, because I graduated. But now I face a new problem; getting a job. I need to get a job, but i'm so scared of every place I go, and everywhere I go is always crowded, and working online hasn't worked out for me. I'm worried I'll go back to being constantly upset and not being able to remember my day to day life when I get a job. (school was a constant sad blur of anxiousness and depression I couldn't remember very well) I know i'll kill myself if I get a job and everything goes back to how it was before. I just want to feel okay. I know I sound stupid complaining to the internet, but I can't go to my parents about this because they are very ignorant. I told my dad when I was 15-16ish that I had sleeping problems and might need to see a doctor, and his solution was constantly yelling and berating me, telling me I couldn't sleep because I was on the computer, or that if I had sleeping problems, he must have it so much worse, and I was just exaggerating for attention. I figured out one day that if I napped after school, I could actually sleep better, and feel calmer, rather than sleeping at 10 or something. He didn't know about this, and never bothered me until I let it slip that I started napping, and it made me feel better. Then he went from 0-100. He would get upset and yell at me about how it was because I slept during the day that I couldn't sleep at night, and he would loudly knock on my door sometimes during the day and ask angrily if I was sleeping after that. Basically, he ruined the one thing that made me feel better. I still can't nap without feeling guilty. I never told him about my depression because of this, and I was ashamed. He's told me more than once that he thinks suicidal people are cowards, and that they're just stupid, even going so far as to say that my family members who talk about their depression openly, were stupid and attention seeking w*****. Let me get this clear. I was a model student, and child. Never spoke back, never acted out, never got into trouble, good grades, but after so long of trying to hold on and stay strong I was losing my grip, and my grades fell, and that made things so much worse, and I was barely hanging on. To my social life, my family life, and my literal life. I don't want to get a job and have the same thing happen again, but I need to be financially independent to the point where I can get away and hopefully live alone where I can get medical treatment for these horrible, mind dissolving thoughts. I have been trying to get a job, and my dad is getting progressively angrier that it's taking so long. I feel like a wasted life. I feel like a bad daughter, and an even worse human. If anyone has any information, or helpful tips that aren't "just don't be afraid" I would be so grateful if you could tell me. I could really use the information. It's five am and I can't sleep.
  • What Causes Phobias?

    I was in a zoo, till than I have only seen snakes in movies. When I have entered the part with snakes I felt fear, some scary situations from movies were in my head. So I run away from there. Could this be a phobia?
  • who has or is taking SDZ-VENLAFAXINE XR?

    My dr just put me on SDZ-VENLAFAXINE XR, and it makes me feel tired and blah. I was just wondering if anyone has had any problems with it, or just wanna talk about it :) Thanks

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