So my Name is Alexis but my Friends call me Star i perfer it, and id like to talk about some of the stuff that iv been throught if thats alright with you guys.
Well the abuse started when i was 8 years old, thats when my step dad got out of jail came to live with me and my mom and brother. At first i thought maybe this will be cool ill have a dad that will love me and take care of me and want me around for a change unlike my real father that really didnt want anything to do with me. But after a while of living with my step father i learned quick that he had a short fuse and that he loved to drink, and when he was drunk he had an even shorter fuse. after about 6 mouths is when the abuse started he would hit us all the time and for the smallest things, if we didnt make are beds right he would come in rip everything in the room apart and smack us so hard up side the head we fell to the floor holding are heads and he would look down at us and say now you lil fuckers fix all this shit you just messed up and make your god dam beds right. after a while he got even more confurtabul with hitting us, and locking us in are rooms in the dark. I used to hate school before he got out of jail but after he came home and was here to stay i couldnt wait for the weekend to be over so i could go back to school and get away from him. after almost 4 years of abuse my mother finally wised up and dumped him but because im the lucky person that i am after he left the bullying at school got way worse, to the point wear i started cutting and i cant stop. the bullys got a kick out of making fun of me because i wasnt cool i was an outcast among outcast's and seeing as i was the weird quit kick that kepted to herself and listened to nothing but music and only wore band t-shirts the bullys tuke it apone themselfs to start a rumor that i was a big fat lesbian with a skin flap and that no even the uglyest lesbian would want me.
Now: i am still bullyed and i still cut i cant seem to stop but i wised up to cut where my friends and family cant see the scars and cuts if i wear a t-shirt. i just wanted to join this site to see if i could or would get any help with my problumes.
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