I don't want to be negative, but I really think you need to talk to a professional about these feelings.
Yeah I know I need to see someone but unfortunately my therapist is away. And what you guys are saying isn't helping me. Another person asked this question before and people were much more supportive.
It's alright, it is just the anxiety talking. The fact that you fear hurting your family means it's anxiety. I have similar thoughts too. Just recently and I had a panic attack after that it went away but I'm guessing it will be back soon. I think it would help to see a psychiatrist. She could at least prescribe you something to give you immediate relief so you two can work on your totally curable disorder together. - Janna Rae 6 months ago
I think it's because we don't actually know what to say to something like this, as we aren't professionals. And for me, personally, you saying these feelings don't usually last this long and whatnot - that tells me that it's worse than it's been before, therefore it could become even worse, and you could actually act on the thoughts. When someone's safety is at stake - you need to see someone. Even if it isn't your own therapist...there has to be someone "on call" to sub in for him/her, or an urgent crisis centre or something.
I'm sorry you don't think we're being supportive, but again I agree with Asho. I really don't know what to say because I've never experienced it and I don't understand it whatsoever, and I just can't give advice about something I don't understand. So, sorry if "get help" isn't what you wanted to hear but that's the best we can do. You need support way beyond what anyone on here can say and I think it's urgent you do that, because not getting help is putting you and your family's safety in jeopardy.
I do hav intrusive thoughts but not those kind. My thoughts tend to be more self centered. As in I worry about what people are thinkning of me and stuff like that. I can relate to intrusive thoughts but I can't relate to the type you're having. None the less they can be very stressfull and only add to your anxiety. I hope you find the help and support you're looking for. I am going to have to agree with the two others and suggest that you try and talk to anyone who will see you. At one point in my life I was having audio hallucinations and the only thing I could do was seek immediate help from the local psychiatric facility. Some things require a more immediate response than others when dealing with anxiety, depression and the related issues. I think this is one of those things. Good luck and I really hope you find the help you need.
Thanks everyone! I was finally able to see my therapist. She told me that it was good that I was talking about it with not only my family and her. She had that if I really had those intentions to hurt my family, I wouldn't have mentioned it to anybody. I was a bit scared to taking medication for my anxiety because I'm only 17 and I don't wanna have to rely on it but both my mom and I decided that I should try it for a month and see how it goes. This saturday, I just started on Fluvoxamine. Here's to hoping that it will help.
That is great, I hope you get well. I am on meds too. And I am getting better. I know how those intrusive thoughts can be stressing and the a good way to battle it is trusting yourself and your therapist. It gives me hope to know that someone is recovering from this too. - Janna Rae 5 months ago
Hi Nat. I was having the same problem only different kinds of intrusive thoughts. They were really starting to increase my anxiety and the more my anxiety increased the more intrusive thoughts I was having. I am too on Fluvoxamine and it seems to be helping a lot. It was almost like the thoughts were becoming an OCD behaviour. Hope all is going well with your meds.
First and foremost, you're not a bad person for struggling with this. You are obviously a good person if you are asking for help. So, good for you for taking initiative. I used to struggle with hateful thoughts. They'd come and go. It honestly freaked me out. I was dealing with a lot of mental and emotional abuse from my family and didn't fully know it. I was trapped, too. They were the ones who took care of me, so what they said went. Maybe what you're experiencing is an underlying issue. Something that really helped me cope with difficult situations was journaling the heck out of my notebook. I vented on those pages so much that I'd never want anyone else (but me) to read them. You obviously need some kind of release. Whether it be through working out, swimming, rollerblading, journaling, dancing, singing, etc. find a way to let it out. It might not be pretty, but it will pass. Just free it in a healthy way. :)
Hahaha I love this.Yes, I find writing down feelings is great, it is personally my go-to for stressful feelings. - Janna Rae 5 months ago
I agree with Asho. It's imperative that you seek help because that is not normal thinking, and can turn into an ugly reality. Please seek help.
That's really good advice Andy
i had written a long response to this....where did it go?
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